I’ve been away from the blog for a few months. Not vacationing, not ill. No real reason other than taking time to integrate myself into this full time job. Or am I integrating this full time job into my life?
The job is going exceptionally well. I laugh when I think about how adamant I was about having a J.O.B. No way, I was not going to do that. I was going to have my own business and do my own thing and write my own destiny.
Well, I am writing my own destiny. Always will, just as you are, too. To bring you up to speed, in case you’re new here, two months ago (yesterday, in fact), I landed a pretty great job. I had been under- and un-employed for awhile. My last real job was as a registered nurse for a long term care facility. I left in July 2010 due to a breakdown/meltdown. That colossal event led me to release much of my material possessions, like my run-down red Honda. The Honda was run-down, not the paint job. My income was slashed drastically. Gratefully, we do have Employment Insurance in Canada, however, it was a drastic change in income for me and I was not able to keep up with the lifestyle I had built around me.
It was nowhere near an extravagant lifestyle, mind you. Single mom, three kids at home. My youngest would go to her dad’s about 1/2 the time, but I still was the chief breadwinner. I learned an awful lot about setting boundaries that summer. It was hard to have to tell my two older 20-something’s they had to find a new place to live, because I had to move. Getting money from the government after I lost my job was helpful, but it was not enough to live like I had (again, which was not extravagant). I moved to a dingy trailer on Quadra Island and did a ton of healing.
Lots happened in between then and now. Lots of internal shifts which resulted in external shifts. Fast forward to two months ago, when I started my new job. Now I investigate and inspect residential facilities in my area. Perfect job for me. I get to write for my job. Reports, mind you, but writing nonetheless. I actually love my job.
Did it solve all my money issues? Well, yes and no. It’s been a HUGE help in getting myself on track again. Again? Feels like I’m getting on track for the first time ever. All the affirmations I worked on in that dingy trailer have come to light. “I live in a Universe of abundance”, “I pay all my bills in full and on time” and “I freely and joyfully give”.
I was WORKING it. Hard core. And I am still learning through my finances. That’s why I’m picking up on the blog again. Finances continue to be the way I learn about the world; how I learn about the energies of the world and my relationship to them, as them. Yes, I now pay my bills in full and on time. I am finally comfortable tithing 10% of my income to where I am spiritually fed. (Mind you, I just noticed I am tithing 10% based on my net income. Time to kick it up a notch to 10% of gross income.)
I am still working it. Life has softened a bit, for sure. I have softened. Thank you Universe. That was a tough patch I went through. Yet that gurgling desire of Life is always bubbling up through me. A desire to live Life fully, completely. I consciously choose to experience as much Life as I possibly can, and being able to bring that through me means expanding the expression of who and what I am. I’ve got it in me. I know I do. I can feel it.
Sure, I have a job, now. I’m not stopping there. I’m definitely settling into the job, learning a lot about myself, expanding my skills as I learn this new way of being in the world. There is so much more I choose to express while I am here on Earth. So much more different than the depressive days and months post-breakdown. If you’re dealing with your own meltdown after-effects, hang in there. Please hang in there. You can come through this. You may believe “lack of money” is what is depressing and if only you had more money, you’d be okay. Sound familiar? Money does not solve anything. Not anything real, and not anything long term. It’s all energy and YOU are the critical energy center. What you see in your world is up to you. Don’t like how your life is? Change your thoughts. Feel what you DO want to experience. Go inward and develop your relationship with what I like to call The Field. That place (for lack of a better word) where All Is. Where All Begins. Where All Originates.
I’m excited to be back writing. There have been many changes within and I am eager to share. Questions about money? Comment below. Let’s get this party started